The beginning

I have decided to blog my breast cancer story.  Since this crazy ordeal began I have felt like it was so crazy, it was like a story.  Like this couldn't possibly be real.  I just kept thinking- I should write about this because it is just too crazy to real.   I also want to write because I think sometimes it is going to be hard to talk to people face to face, or on the phone.  I see their pain and I hear it in their voices.  This is so hard because then I want to be strong for THEM.  I can't think of anyone else right now though because I need to do whatever I can to keep myself strong and healthy.  Another reason I am writing is because I will kick this thing, and then this story is going to help someone else.  Someone else that is freaking out and scared to death.  I know it will be helpful because it is other peoples stories that are helping me right now.  Sometimes they are scary stories but they are real.  I need real- not sugar coating.  This blog is not going to be pretty.  It is going to be ugly and scary and real- because right now that IS my life- ugly and scary, and so very real.