The date was great!

I went to the Cancer Center to meet 'Jane'.  I had no idea what she looked like, but I knew she was done with chemo, so she had some hair, and I knew she was about 60yrs old.  I tell ya- it was much like a blind date.  I sat in the waiting room looking at people, waiting for someone that fit that description.  I finally found a woman and asked her name- she was the one I was looking for!  When I first got there, I saw Fred the nurse in the lobby.  I told her that I was meeting 'Jane' so I could see her boobs, and that we would be borrowing an exam room.  She kind of looked at me strange, then smiled really big and said sure- I will give you guys a room!  Yeah!  So, when I finally found Jane in the waiting room, I just took her back to the rooms and found Fred- she led us to an empty room.    All I can say about the experience is WOW!  It was amazing!  Seriously!  She showed me, and I could not stop staring.  It looked so real and so natural.  She had a scar underneat her boob, in the crease but I couldn't see any other scar.  It was smooshy and floppy and great!  I just kept staring and saying "wow, that is such a great boob!"  She has gone through her second surgery for it- stage 2.  That is where they build her nipple and areola.  Instead of just having her areola tattooed on, she actually had a skin graft from her hip made into the areola.  She is still waiting to get the tattooing done, which will just add color.  If I didn't know better,I would never guess that she had a mastectomy- it looked so real and natural.  I knew after seeing it, that absolutely this was the right thing for me to do!  I might get something out of this that looks real- not something out of a horror movie or freak show, like I have now.  I am so excited!  Jane told me that I can call her anytime if I have questions.  She also told me that she is pretty sure that Dr. Duffy won't wait very long to do the surgery.  Of course it all depends on how my skin reacts to radiation but at least there is a possibility that I will have the surgery before summer or maybe early summer.  It would be kind of nice to go into summer with a completely flat stomach and a nearly matching set of boobs!!  I really am glad that I met with her- I feel so much more positive about the outcome of this whole ordeal, as well as just feeling like this next year won't completely suck!
And now, I am off to the plastic surgeons office to discuss radiation and my plans for the future- which unfortunately do not include him, since I am certain about DIEP now.  This will be my first of 4 doctor appointments this week.  I only have Tuesday off- good grief!