Plastic Surgeon appt.

I had my plastic surgery consultation this morning.  The office was SO nice, it felt like I was at a spa.  I had looked the doctor up online and thought he maybe looked a little creepy, but he didn't look like the picture much at all, in fact- he reminded me MUCH of Dr. Sloan on Greys Anatomy (Dr. McSteamy) he looked AND talked like him- it was weird!  He told me my boobs have great architecture! LOLOLOL!  He does implants as well as the TRAM- where they use your own body tissue from your stomach to build a new boob, but it is a huge cut and he said it takes about 3 months to recover fully from that.  While I really, really like the idea of natural, I have enough on my plate right now, and dont want to make things harder for myself if I don't have to.  So- we chose to go with implants.  First, during the mastectomy he will place a tissue expander behind my muscle and will fill it slowly over a few months until it is the size we want it to be, then we wait for all my cancer treatment to finish and after that we do the exchange- where i get my implant.  It will not feel like a normal squishy boob because the implant will be behind a layer of muscle, but under clothing it will look normal.  For normal implants, the doctor uses saline, but for reconstruction, he uses silicone-apparently it feels softer so it helps it to look and feel a bit more natural.

for some reason this picture will NOT sit sideways... anyhow- the top is the implant which is what I will get in the end- the bottom is the tissue expander.  It is empty to start with and it is hard and kind of scratchy :-/, but basically it is just a really strong empty water balloon.  They stick a needle through the skin, into the little bubble to fill it every couple of weeks.

Oh- and YES, you can still sleep on your stomach with these things in- yes, I had to ask!

and as a little present to myself, since I will already have a plastic surgeon and all- I am going to get my right ear repaired so that I can wear earrings.  I figure that will look nice with no hair/short hair!  I haven't worn earrings in about 20 years!  They are pierced but the right one is torn so if I put earrings in it is terribly lopsided.